Baby, please don't 自暴自弃。I beg u please. I'm so heart pain when i read ur blog this morning. It's not ur fault. No matter what happen, i'll always be with u. Always, i promise. I felt like crying when i saw u writing about "when someone can fucking kill me". I don't wan to see anything happen to u. U are like a part of my body alrdy. And i don't wan to see u get hurt or anything. I just wan u to be happy and live a happy life. I'm still trying hard to make u happy again. But sometime when i see u like this, it just somehow stop everything. I got no more power to make u happy again. Everytime, when it happen, i just tried my best to get myself on the right track again. I'll keep on trying to make u happy again. No matter what, remember this, no matter what happen to ur world, i'll always be here, take care of u every second, every minute, every hour, everyday, every week, every month, every year.
Baby, u r special to me. I Love U forever.